Losing a friend

I suppose we have grown apart, but it really sucks. I guess because I don't have kids, not a soccer mom, don't enjoy shopping, don't enjoy drinking to get drunk, I guess we don't have anything in common anymore. Nothing but a couple of the most important people in my heart. I miss the whole family but especially the kids. I am not sure what exactly happened. She has admitted on more than one occasion that she "sucky friend". This is not new. More than once our friendship has been overtaken by the "flavor of the month". It has pretty much happened our whole lives. I am reminded of this by other friends and family, hers and mine. It still sucks to not know what is going on in their lives, good, bad, and indifferent. We used to talk daily and now it is a text now and again usually initiated my me. I am not sure what to do, let it go, hope she comes back, or confront and maybe never have it again.
Thanks for letting me vent.

When's it going to click?

When is the malfunction in my brain going to be fixed. I don't know what issue is inside, that is do deep, I can't let it surface.
I want to think I can lose weight on my own, no pills to help, no magic drink, nothing but me being able to control what I eat. I have heard thin/normal people say "I eat to live not live to eat." Why can't I grasp this concept. I am miserable at the weight I am right now. I have no energy, I don't want to go anywhere, do anything, I am happy to sit home and watch TV or sleep. Sex, what sex, I have no desire, no energy, nothing. It sucks. All of it. I know what I am supposed to eat, do, think, but it just doesn't come together for me. My body aches all the time, I am a crabby bitch at home. Will it ever come together? -----just rambling. Thanks