Sunday, March 11, 2007


I am stuck. I have gained and lost these same 5 f*&#ing pounds since Jan. 1st. Is it mental, physical, both???? I feel like I am doing the Cha Cha with the scale --- 2.8 #'s up, 3.8 #'s down, 1.2 up, .4 down, Cha Cha to the left now. F*&#!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't have much patience anyway and this is like watching paint dry in St. Louis on August 25th. (It's never going to happen.)
I have tried to stay positive. I am positive for everyone else -- I am the Queen co-dependent. I am always going to RESTART tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow, like a broken record. Then I am reasonable for 3 out of the 7 days before weigh in. At least I don't act surprised at the scale. I just feel like a kid caught with their hand in the cookie jar --- hmmmm Freud??
Well, thanks for listening, those of you that visited, and haven't given up.