Sunday, October 29, 2006

To buy or not to buy....

I need a new car but don't have the friggin' money for the taxes right now for the car I want. I had a major melt down with R. the other night pretty much letting him know that he is the reason that I can't get the car I want. I WILL NOT SETTLE AGAIN FOR SOMETHING I DON'T WANT. I am tired of driving that piece of crap that I drive now. I don't feel safe in it and am sure it will break down any day. So, do I go the home equity route? The wipe out savings and use the credit card route? I have been so uptight about this I am blowing other crap in my life totally out of the water and I can't do that. P. gave me some great advice and said sometimes we just need to bite the bullet among other things. This a pretty big bullet and I like my mouth, I use it a lot but, if it blows up in my face it could solve another of my big issues in life!!!!!!

Wednesday, October 25, 2006


I do love me some Yadier Molina. Go Cards!

Monday, October 23, 2006


That's what I called her. I have been thinking a lot about her the last couple of days. A lot. My Grandma has been gone for about 10 yrs or so but it feels like yesterday. I really still believe she was the only person in this world who totally got me and loved me UNconditionally. She never judged me a day in her life and still never would. She lived a hard life she didn't deserve with a man she should have left. I wear her ring every day. It never mattered that I was adopted, I was her Angel. She is a part of me, I am a part of her.

Sunday, October 22, 2006

A little about me. Hmmm. Where to begin. Let's start current and work backwards for now. (it will probably change) I live in my own home with my boyfriend of 5 years (more on him later) and my puppy Jillian a Yorkie. I live in the same town where I grew up and would not have it an different. I live about 2 miles from my parents. Just far enough but still close enough. My parents--the best, always there for you and your friends. Never said no (unless it was an insanely stupid request) and always gave to the best of their ability. I am an only child and adopted at that (much more about that later). So, many have said and still do that I was/am spoiled. I have my thoughts.
Currently I am saving to buy a new car. I just got the title on the old one and need to save enough $ for the taxes on the new one. I am also trying to do little bit by little bit to my house. It all takes $$.
The big thing in my life right now is that I have turned a new leaf over in the health department and am losing weight: 68 pounds to date since Jan. I have been overweight ALL my life and have been on every diet in the book. The Soup Diet, Atkins (my way), counting calories (my way), eat what you want and then take ex-lax (not highly recommended unless you are staying home for the evening), Slim-fast, Phen-Fen, and now Weight Watchers for the probably 8th time. Heck I am a Lifetime member from the 4th grade!! But, this time it is clicking. I am just taking it a day at a time. I also have a lot of support around me and afar (thanks Schmoopie!). I feel great and am starting to even feel good about how I look. Well, enough for tonight.
Thanks for reading and may all your dreams come true.
O.K. Schmoopie you have made me one of you. Now what?!?!?! This now will probably become my new habit. But, it is 0 points :)